Ah cones. meghan participated in her very first coning, with one cone obtained from st joe's courtesy of northeast utilities, that evil corporate entity. we coned jess' doorstep, out of a lack of other west hartford residents. we also bemoaned our lack of things to do several times. we honked at some cute bongo drummers. meghan says i make her a bad driver! i also stole two more cones on the way home and coned melissa...i heard caesar and cleo go crazy inside so i skedaddled. and here i be. i read rae's blog today....i so understood so much of what she was talking about...college is going to be a weird transition, and everyone's telling me not to go into it with a boyfriend either. i also spend time thinking about how we'll adjust to bein separated, and if we'll grow apart, and if we shouldnt just cut it short right now and save ourselves the trouble. sigh. i don't know the answer, really, but i have such a problem with the idea of saying "gee honey, the last year or so's been great, and i do love you, but....for my convenience, we should just break up right now." jessi advised me to tell him that we'd date when we "had the chance". ummm...how does one reconcile loving someone part of the time and seeing other people at other times? it's like annie and pace. they broke up because they moved apart, they were'nt on the same track....yet they loved each other? did their love wane, and that led to the break? did they still love each other, and let thei environments pull them apart? i guess since i've never loved anyone before i don't know how it will end. i know people love multiple people in life, i know greg is my "first love", the one i'll remember with teary eyes twenty years down the line...but how do first loves end? where is that line, and will i know when we have tiptoed across it?