Vive La France, Troisième Partie

On Monday morning we left Avignon heading west. Our first stop was the Pont du Gard, the great Roman acqueduct that carried water to Nimes. It crosses the river Gard between two high hills, both of which are now full of trails and lookout points; on the side we climbed, you can see where it once emerged from a channel in the mountain, but which now peters into nothing, the channel having collapsed in the 6th century. An effort in the 1850s to resuscitate it by Emperor Napoleon III left a tunnel through the top of a hill, but no other result. This was where Sean's unquenchable thirst to follow any path he sees meandering away--or preferably, up--from a main trail caused us to get separated. Sean decided to go over the hill, and told me to go through the tunnel and meet him on the other side. I waited 20 minutes, until finally I was walking around the hill calling his name, feeling like an idiot, but also weirdly vulnerable, since I realized that if you needed help on the side of the river, you'd have to go back down the steps, cross the pedestrian bridge, and run back to the visitor center. Finally, Sean appeared, but coming up the steps from the river--he'd gotten completely off track, and only running into a fellow wanderer who told him there was nothing on the path he was on sent him climbing down to the river. If he hadn't met that guy, who knows how long he'd have been gone. Needless to say, from here on out we agreed there would be no separating in wooded areas!

The Pont du Gard really is extraordinary. Together with the acqueduct of Segovia, we've now seen the two most complete surviving examples of this feat of Roman civil engineering and architecture. (The Pont du Gard's scenic setting makes it somewhat more impressive than the city setting of the Spanish aqueduct, I must say). This whole trip I felt like I was filling in gaps of monuments I teach in the survey courses but had never seen myself, with Sainte Chapelle and the Pont du Gard being only two of the most prominent examples. On the walk back we met another venerable antique: a Spanish olive tree, which a nearby plaque informed us was "born" in 908 CE, and transplanted to this site from Spain 1,080 years later, in 1988. Sean was fascinated, pointing out that it's one thing to marvel at a hunk of lifeless stone that has weathered a few millenia, but to think of a living creating being over a thousand years old is another.

Nimes was a fairly brief stop. There was another arena, but we'd already seen one in Orange and another in Arles, so we were set.  Its main attraction is the Maison Carre, the most complete Roman temple in existence (which has of course, in its long life, seen service as everything from gentleman's mansion to convent to stables). We admired it from the outside, but in order to go in we'd have to wait for the next film screening 30 minutes later, and we realized that we really needed to get on the road. It was 2:30, we had a five-hour drive to Bordeaux, and we'd arranged to have dinner at the B&B at 8pm. As we later learned, part of the laws governing a chambre d'hôtes says that if dinner is offered, it must be served at one table and to all the guests at one time--I imagine to avoid competition with restaurants. I was driving, since I drive faster than Sean. I admit to taking advantage of the rules of the road, generally observed scrupulously by French drivers: on two-lane highways, the left lane really is just for passing, it's not a fast lane like we think of it. Well, for me it was! It was great, even though I was a little worried about getting a French speeding ticket, since I was doing between 130-140 most of the way, a speed I have now realized was not 70-75 like I thought, but 80-85. Whoops.

We were a little stressed because the GPS told us we'd arrive around 8:20, and we had no way to contact the B&B to let them know we'd be late. We stopped at a gas station (the price of diesel gas, not to mention double-digit tolls, was appalling) only to discover that French pay phones only take France Telecom cards, not cash (ah, France Telecom--I remember in the long-ago days of 2006, Heather bitching about her battle to get telecommunications in her Paris apartment). We had opted not to get a French SIM in the end, as a waste of money, but right about then how we wished we had one!

Despite the push to move quickly, there was plenty of time to enjoy the countryside we were moving through, which was really exquisite. Southern France is one of the loveliest places I've ever seen, so lush and green and full of flowers! Although we've always found beauty in the places we've traveled, most of them have been relatively dry and hot, especially Spain, Turkey, and Greece. Compared to these, France was like Eden! Even the rolling hills of Tuscany were outshone by the verdant landscape between Provence and Bordeaux. That beauty only intensified as we got off the highway and began to drive through seemingly endless miles of vineyards in the French countryside, punctuated regularly by tiny villages, many of which amounted to no more than a church and a cluster of buildings at a juncture of two roads. Sunset was falling, there was golden light on the vines, and it was really one of the most picturesque things I'd ever seen.

At long last, we found our way to the tiny postage-stamp village of Naujan-et-Postiac, where Beau Sejour is nestled right next to the church. We were only 20 minutes late, and Maureen assured us the cheese souffle for the first course wasn't even in the oven yet, so we had time to unload and freshen up--I even changed into a dress, like a 19th-century society girl "dressing for dinner"! Our fellow dinner guests were two Australians, or I should say wealthy Australians, who were on a year-long vacation in Europe, and about to meet up with their daughter, our age, who was herself on a two-month vacation! From them, too, we got some ribbing about America's terrible vacation allowance. The wife told Sean at one point, with the voice of true shocked privilege, "but two weeks isn't anything! You've only begun to relax at the end of two weeks, and then it's all over!" I don't think that's true in every case, though. If you have a home base (they, and another Australian couple at the B&B the next night, were headed to rented houses in Provence and Spain), then absolutely, you can stay as long as you want, develop a relaxing routine, cook at home, wash your clothes, etc. But I couldn't travel like we were doing, on the go and moving around every few days, for more than a couple weeks. It's just too tiring.

Describing a vacation as "tiring" seems the height of contradiction, but even I was feeling it by the time we were in Bordeaux. Sean and I almost always wind up in some kind of squabble over resting vs. active time when we're travelling. If I'm planning to hang out in a park, I'll bring a novel, but I get annoyed if we're out somewhere and Sean suddenly announces he wants to linger there, as he did when he plopped onto the grass in the park adjoining the papal palace in Avignon and announced his pressing need to nap in the sunlight (which, admittedly, we'd seen precious little of in Paris). Sean, for his part, gets annoyed at being expected to plan these reveries in advance, and especially at feeling hurried on from wherever he's communing with nature. In the Avignon case, I grudgingly sat on a bench and people-watched for half an hour while Sean soaked up the rays, but by Bordeaux, as I said, even I was feeling the need to slow down.

There could be no more welcoming and restful place to do that than the B&B we picked. Maureen and Jon, a British couple, bought this property ten years ago and restored it, over a period of six years, to its full glory. It reminded me of Longbourne, from the A&E Pride and Prejudice, crossed with a French farmhouse. The kitchen alone was bigger than most New York apartments. The house was full of gorgeous antiques, including surprisingly comfortable couches in the great room, but there were entirely welcome spots of modernity, like the bathrooms. Biggest bathroom I have ever seen in Europe! The most comfortable mattress, too, though it still doesn't compare to how soft mine is at home. Our hosts said they'd been in computers previously, and they must have made a fortune, because I can't even imagine how much money it cost, not only to restore the house, but to decorate it as well. This was clearly a dream for them, and they were awesome at it; as Sean said, they were "true innkeepers," warm, welcoming, and extremely helpful. Wherever you wanted to go, Maureen had a printed set of driving instructions that were invariably more helpful than the GPS. Whatever you wanted to do, they had suggestions and would make reservations. Maureen was brisk and all-business, Jon was quieter, but the one with the funny stories that were at first difficult for us to understood, his voice muffled behind a truly impressive mustache.

And oh, the food. Dinner that first night was cheese souffle, duck in a wine sauce that had first been marinated and then slowly braised for hours (I fully recognized in France what Julia Child had called the secret ingredient of French cooking: time), and a lemon citron tart. The wine was superb. Jon said it was a neighbor's and that they'd virtually bought out the stock, and they weren't kidding--Chateau Minvielle was barely a mile down the road! It's one of Sean's regrets that he didn't try to buy a bottle from Jon, since this is a local producer, not someone who exports. (Indeed, that word "chateau" sounds awfully grand to us Americans, but in France it refers to a vineyard property. Every single acre of vineyard you pass is part of some chateau or other, and one which may or may not have an actual structure worthy of the term; Minvielle, for example, looked to be a relatively modest establishment). Breakfast in the morning was an ample buffet that included three kinds of homemade jams (Sean's favorite) and actual toasted bread (my favorite--gotta love those Brits!). In the late afternoon they'd put out tea service, plus white and rose wine and some baked goods. Sitting in the great room, nibbling a shortbread cookie, sipping rose, reading, and listening to the birds in the garden outside: it was very near to perfect. The only improvement would have been more sun, which would have let us lounge on the patio and in the grounds.

Tuesday we had an appointment at Chateau Prieure-Lichine, which ended up our only wine visit of the entire trip. This was in the Medoc region, a thin peninsula between the Gironde River and the Atlantic that produces some of the most famous wines which are all called "Bordeaux" in America, but which respond to far more specific appellations in France (the ones we would taste were part of the small parcel called Margaux). We headed up the D2 "wine road" on Jon's recommendation, and as we closer to our destination, we passed huge places like Chateau Palmer that were truly worthy of the name "chateau". We visited a fort constructed by Louis XIV's military architect, Vauban (who is buried with Napoleon in the Invalides), one of three designed to protect the river from enemies, particularly the English, getting down to Bordeaux. We learned that Bordeaux was wealthy even in the late middle ages, and was consequently always rather independent from the French crown (for example, Ulrich at Prieure-Lichine claimed that when Louis XVI [he said Henry IV, which made no sense] banned The Marriage of Figaro by Beaumarchaise, Bordeaux instantly planned a performance and sent the king an invitation; I can't find any evidence of this on the Google, though. Ulrich also tried to tell me that the Romans did not invent or even know how to make concrete, though, so his word is perhaps not to be trusted...) Their wealth came from their wine, which was particularly famous in England, where it was called "claret" because its red light was so clear.

Ulrich's two-hour introduction to wine production and tasting was pretty fabulous. Half-French and half-German, with intense eyes and a long, graying ponytail, this man could go from waxing utterly poetic about the difference between simple wine-making (which anyone could do and most producers did do) and what he called "expression" (his word for true artisanal production of fine wine), to making ribald sex jokes or criticizing some of the choices of the corporation which now ran the chateau. Although he quickly lumped American wines into the "wine-making" category (here I thought, but what about that famous blind-tasting in Paris in 1976 where Napa wines whipped the French ones?), he made fun of the French, too. Our favorite quote: "Do you know why the rooster is the national symbol of France? Because he is the only one who can crow so proudly with his feet in the shit!" Possibly he was putting it on a little bit for our benefit, who knows--he was very funny, but also full of fascinating information about the vintner's art.

And art it really is, because we learned that there is no factor, no matter how seemingly insignificant, which they don't consider capable of altering the taste of the wine. I mean, I was aware of aging in steel vs. oak, for example, but we're talking about things like the shape of the vats (they use tear-drop-shaped concrete vats, which is what raised the Roman issue), the newness of the oak barrels (theirs are used twice on their finest wine, once on the second-tier wine [which I actually liked better], and then sold off), and even the varieties of yeast living in the vats (he invited us to stick our heads into an empty vat and smell what he called, in true European fashion "the yeast memory" of generations). We also learned that the precise blend of grapes used changes every year, depending on what kind of year it's been for the vines. One of the characteristics that Ulrich claimed distinguishes a fine wine from a "produced" wine is that a mere wine-maker finds a recipe, a mixture, and follows it every year with the goal of reproducing the taste exactly, while a chateau looking to "express" the true character of the wine not only allows, but expects, the wine to taste subtly different every year.

That's wonderfully evocative to hear about, but the proof should be in the pudding, so to speak, and their was. The wine was good, very good, even if I don't have enough of a proper vocabulary to say what was good about it. The bottle we ordered that night at dinner, for example, was very clearly not to to par with what we'd sipped earlier, and yet neither of us could precisely say why--phrases like "less developed" and "not as smooth" came to the tongue, but what does that really even mean? Anyway, we learned the various tasting procedures, including inhaling air while swishing the wine in your mouth, and then spitting--I always thought the spitting was to keep from intoxication, but Ulrich pointed out that it helps you focus on the wine, since your brain never switches gears to processing the wine going down the throat. I was skeptical, but it really was true--the flavor was stronger, and I could think about it more, but I'll be damned if I'm ever going to suck in air while swishing a liquid in my mouth in public, fine wine or no.

We bought our second and third bottles here, a 2010 edition of their second-level wine, Confidences du Prieure-Lichine, which we'll be sharing with Linda and Gary over dinner ronight, and a 2007 bottle of their Gran Cru Classe, which we'll be sharing with Danny G tomorrow. The Gran Cru label, I've learned, refers to wines which were classified in 1855 on the occasion of an International Exposition in Paris on the orders of Napoleon III, who wanted to be able to show off France's best Bordeaux wines to the world, ranked in terms of "growths" or "cru" from first to fifth. The five first-growth wines are the most famous: Mouton, Lafite-Rothschild, Latour, Margaux, and Haut-Brion (there's also a white first-growth, Chateau d'Yquem, which produces a sweet white that was one of Julia Child's favorites; too bad a bottle costs $400!). Prieure-Lichine is a humble fourth-growth in comparison, but it's still considered a big deal even to have been around and been classified in 1855. (Imagine the shame of the poor parvenu wines of the 1860s!) Our third bottle, incidentally, was a Chateauneuf-du-Pape, which we've decided to share with Jon and Kathy Ward, fellow wine-drinking-lovers (as opposed to wine lovers, which sounds rather more elevated than our skills allow). I was very proud that all three made it home undamaged: first in the carrying box, then surrounded by an entire roll of bubble wrap procured from a Monoprix back in Paris, and finally wrapped in a heavy-duty black trash bag given to me by the hotel, in case of breakage, before being stowed in the dirty-clothes suitcase. We were also careful to remove any particularly favorite articles of clothing, just in case!

After our wine-tasting, we headed back down the winding country roads to the B&B, where we partook in the aforementioned afternoon delight. At 8pm we left for St. Emilion, a small medieval hilltop city nearby famous for its local wines; in fact, I found Beau Sejour because I was looking for a place to stay in St. Emilion (again on Julia Child's recommendation) but couldn't find anything at that precise juncture of appealing and affordable, and this B&B had near-perfect rankings on Tripadvisor, not to mention ecstatic reviews, of which mine is now the most recently-minted. After dinner, we wandered the very steep cobbled streets of the town, which was quite empty. Like Venice, few can afford to live there now, so at night it's the province of the tourists.

We originally had scheduled another wine tasting, this one in St. Emilion, for the next morning, but Sean decided that what he wanted more than anything else was just to sleep in. We struck a perfect compromise: while Sean slept, I (in no rush myself) headed about 15 miles or so east to Chateau Montaigne, once home of my friend the essayist. It was a cold and cloudy morning, and when I got there at 10:20, the girl at the little shop gave me a map and told me to meet her at the entrance for the guided tour, in French, at 11am. It was a little more chilly than one wants it to be when you have to amuse yourself outside for 40 minutes, but oh well. The property was lovely, with a fantastic view out over the surrounding countryside from the rear garden/parapet thing (apparently Montaigne could see his brother's castle from here, but I couldn't pick it out), and a rather insistent black pony who followed me around from the confines of the penned-off parts of the ground, barrelling toward me on his stumpy little legs in a parody of a stallion's elegant gallop.

 The girl had given me a sheet with all the info on the property in English. I already knew that the chateau itself was destroyed in the 19th century by fire, rebuilt, and is a private residence; only the tour is on the tour [edit: I should have written "tower", but tour does mean that in French!]. With 10 or 15 minutes to go (no watch!) it started to pour, and my umbrella was in the car. Luckily there was a bridge connecting the tower to the wall on the other side of the entrance, where the girl found me huddling. She spoke virtually no English, so I relieved her of the need to actually give the tour, which I wouldn't understand anyway; we just walked through the rooms. I would have liked to have spent a bit more time, but it was awkward--she clearly had a cold, and no coat, and was coughing, so I felt terrible for pulling her down this lane to let one sad tourist in to Montaigne's chilly tower! Aside from the library, where 1,000 books once reposed on curved shelves, and where painted maxims still adorn the roof-beams for him to contemplate as he walked up and down, there was a small cabinet which was once frescoed with scenes from Virgil, almost totally effaced now, especially by graffiti of previous visitors, but she pointed to one small surviving vignette of a bird eating grapes.

That was all for my visit. Maureen had warned me strictly not to try the wine, which was awful, as she said all chateaux with any kind of historical connection are bound to be, so I thanked my poor guide (who had brought an extra umbrella for me!) and headed back to Beau Sejour. Sean and I went then to explore St Emilion in the daylight, and followed our usual procedure: Sean finds and insists on climbing high structures (I joined him for the clocktower, a really powerful breeze, but declined the lower "prince's tower"), we check out pastry and sweet shops (best salted caramel I've ever had!) and generally admire the splendor. Near the ruins of a convent (and St Emilion must have fared badly in the Wars of Religion, because they're chock-a-block with ruins of monasteries and things) there was a huge, impressive house which had been abandoned a long time, and which was absolutely a ruin inside--graffiti and garbage everywhere, collapsed ceilings and floors--and yet you could see it had the same kind of extraordinary potential of Beau Sejour. This place would require millions, would have to be ripped down to the studs, and yet it faced a charming little acre of vines and beyond them, St. Emilion itself rising up on its hill. If we won the lottery, I would seriously consider it--at least, till I remembered that would require living among the French!

A second evening's enjoyment of the cookies and wine followed, and finally it was time for the piece-de-resistance: our dinner at La Poudette, possibly our best meal of the entire trip (and certainly the most expensive).  Maureen and Jon had named it their favorite in the area, but wanted to make sure we didn't mind cats, as they would be underfoot--they'd had a problem with a past guest who was appalled by this, and actually fought with Sophie, one of the owners!  Rather than be put off, I was only sad I didn't get to pet the ones who wandered by; the little girl at the next table had a petting-monopoly going on.  La Poudette is run by Sophie and her husband at their farmhouse near Pujols.  The setting is idyllic: from a small road, you turn down a one-car lane, at the end of which you see the white wrought-iron gates.  The little parking area was full so we pulled our car next to the adjacent vineyard and walked down the gravel drive, which was positively overflowing with flowers (indeed, at one point during the meal, we looked outside and saw Sophie watering flowers with a hose where she had a minute earlier been bustling about the tables!).  There were geese in a pen (someone on Tripadvisor got chased by them, so possibly that's a new thing), horses, which the owner apparently races, and chickens wandering through the plants.  If it had been warmer we would have eaten on the patio, but alas, we had to eat inside, which was fairly plain.

Oh, but the food! This was not simple-but-good farmhouse cooking, this was evidence of serious culinary training.  Before our appetizers came, we were presented with small bowls with a dollop of cheese in the bottom.  The waiter poured a small lake of cream of asparagus soup on top, and voila!  It was so light, so delicate, and yet the flavors corresponded perfectly.  Then came an amuse-bouche, a platter of 4 pairs of bite-sized bits of deliciousness, again each carefully designed so that its component flavors and textures did something incredible.  There was a beignet, and another with caviar on a bit of hardboiled egg (now I can say that I know I don't like caviar), and two others I can't recall beyond "Mmmmm."  My appetizer was a bit too daring for me--I chose tartare du canard, figuring that I liked duck so much I couldn't go wrong.  Not quite--I couldn't get past the reality of eating raw ground meat (the texture), so Sean, who had discovered a love of beef tartare, finished it, and pronounced it excellent.  It was the main course, though, that was incredible.  I chose a beef cut, entrecote, that was perhaps one of the most tender, most deliciously sauced pieces of meat I have ever eaten.  Sean, for once, acknowledged that my meal choice was superior to his!  There was also a platter of potatoes gratin, far fluffier and dreamier than the more homespun offering at Le Felteu.  The price was well worth paying to experience such incredible food in an atmosphere so lacking in pretension.  We were comfortable there, something which I think applied in addition only to Le Felteu in Paris and to Le Chat Touilleur in Avignon.  

Sean and I have already discussed our return to Beau Sejour, and La Poudette.  It's incredible to think that it will be possible to that as a long weekend trip next year!  RyanAir flies to Bordeaux from Rome; fares next month are only 50 euro, and even less so in the fall.  We'd have to rent a car, which would be the largest expense, but I think it will be worth it.  The most likely choice would be to celebrate our 30th birthdays in the fall of 2015.  One way or another--we'll be back there!

Vive La France: Deuxième Partie

On Friday morning, we headed to Gare du Lyon to catch our train south to Avignon. I had thought that the TGV fast-train we'd be taking would be similar to the bullet train that once sped us from Spain to Paris in a matter of hours, the landscape whipping by indistinguishably outside, but I was happy to be mistaken, so we could enjoy the scenery. I had booked our tickets at the last minute, so they were expensive enough that upgrading to first class was only a little bit extra, and it was definitely worth it, for the leg room alone! I'd also booked us in a quiet car, so that meant a peaceful ride south as I worked on Mark Twain's A Tramp Abroad, his unofficial sequel twenty years after Innocents Abroad.

We were delighted to find the skies in Avignon clear, and the sun hot. Our hotel was basic, but their Tripadvisor rating came from how friendly the owners, Sylvie and Pascal were. When we asked Pascal about restaurants, he whipped out a city map and started writing down his recommendations; we took two of these on successive evenings, and both wound up numbering among our favorite dinners, first L'Epice and Love, and the second Le Chat Touilleur. Our first afternoon we visited the papal palace, where there happened to be a rose festival going on. I don't think I've ever smelled so many roses. I had the idea that I didn't like roses all that much, but it seems that only applies to the regular red rose type (they smell a bit like floor polish to me somehow); there were so many other varieties that had subtler smells, and plenty I wouldn't have been able to ID as a rose at all. Poor Sean has allergies, so he had to limit his sniffage somewhat.

We also crossed the bridge which is apparently famous as the subject of a French nursery rhyme, which all the signs referenced but of course we Americans don't know. I should say that Sean crossed the bridge. I made it out about a third of the way, but the wind was so powerful that I wound up huddling in the lee of one of the chapels built into the bridge while Sean sprinted across to the other side. (I had thrown on a dress when we arrived, excited to finally wear some of my nicer clothes, only to discover that I needed to wear my purse cross-body just to hold the skirt down as we walked around--and there were still some close calls).

This wind, the mistral, was certainly one of the most memorable features of our time in this part of the country. I'd read about its power in Julia Child's memoir; she lived for a time in Marseille, where the wind could hit 50 mph and strip the roof shingles off the houses, and that's when the sun is shining! We didn't see anything quite that strong, but the next morning, but when I came down on Saturday morning in another dress, and Sylvie heard our plans to visit Chateauneuf-du-Pape and Mount Ventoux, she told me to go change. Thank god for that, because the wind up on Chateauneuf-du-Pape (once the location of the Avignon popes' summer palace, bombed out in WWII, hence the name), must have been 30mph. I don't think I've ever felt anything that powerful in my life--it was like a hand in the middle of your chest, pressing on you as you tried to walk! It was exhilarating but shocking at the same time, a reminder that we're basically dry leaves to Mother Nature. We ended up scrapping the Mont Ventoux visit, because Sylvie had warned us it gets so cold up there at the summit that you can't even get out of the car for a picture. I admired it from a distance instead.

Speaking of the car, that was quite an adventure in and of itself. We had originally decided not to pay for a GPS, assuming we could do just fine with a map like we had in Greece, but we hadn't factored in how much more of a busy, populous, and complicated place southern France is, versus the provincial one-horse towns of the Peloponnese, where every place was fairly distant and had just a few streets to navigate. It was a stroke of luck that at the pick-up desk they offered us a car with an onboard GPS for an extra 10 euro a day; we took it, which was one of the best decisions of our trip! I have no idea how we would have survived without it, especially driving at night. Anyway, we got out to the parking lot and discovered we were driving a Peugeot 3008, which is one of those wagon-crossed-with-SUV type things. Much bigger than our cars, or the VW Golf we were expecting. I was driving first, so we hop in, fire it up, and then are immediately confused that there's no D for drive. Nor is there P, for park. (This despite the manual we whipped out, which assures us that even in a French car, there should be D and P). Instead, we've got Reverse, Neutral, and A, which we decide means drive. The car could only be started or turned off in neutral, which meant you had to use the parking brake as the primary brake. OK, fine. I take my foot off the brake, put it in drive, and the car absolutely lurches forward. I hit the brakes, which turn out to be so super-sensitive we're both thrown forward. WTF was that? I try ahead, slowly releasing the brake. Again, the car jolts forward entirely of its own accord. Now I was getting really freaked out, because the parking lot was really tight, and a woman returning a car in Hertz had mentioned how happy she was they'd chosen the extra coverage because her husband had damaged the car getting out of a tight spot. So I'm afraid to even touch the gas, if this is what's happening on its own. Of course by this time Sean and I are yelling at each other, and I'm convinced the car is a dud and we have to go exchange it. What a moment!

Finally, we manage to maneuver it out of the lot and onto the road, when we notice something else weird. When you slowed down to about 10mph or so, the car's engine just cut out. Absolute silence when you were sitting at a red light. Then, the light changes, you lift your foot from the brake, the car moves forward a bit on its own, the engine returns, you hit the gas, and--sluggishly--you accelerate. The answer to this mystery revealed itself in fairly short order, once I noticed the ECO sign light up in green on the dash every time the engine died out. It was a fucking hybrid car! Apparently the lurch forward was simply how the car dealt with switching from electric to fuel. We got used to it--sort of--but I would never buy that car. It was like driving a lawnmower when you had to switch gears, and the acceleration was pretty terrible. We later figured out you could turn off the ECO mode, but by then--having learned the price of French gas--we permitted it lunge forward from every pause. That's what we get for needing an automatic car in Europe, I guess.

From Chateauneuf-du-Pape we headed north to Orange, home to the famous Roman theater, which was very impressive indeed. I learned from the educational video that it's one of only three in the world to retain its stage wall, partially because it's been in continuous use over the millenia--not for long as a theater, after the Christians took power, but rather as housing! The exterior walls still had post-holes from where beams and lintels of adjoining homes were stuck in, and the interior of the theater was all shanties at one time. The didactic panels explained how in the 19th century, the well-educated, classically inclined folk of Orange decided it was time to reclaim the theater, by evicting everyone who lived their and destroying their homes, a 20-year process. Something tells me those people didn't appreciate the gesture.

We acquired some souvenirs in Orange: lip balm and face wash from a pharmacy. It's amazing the things you wind up needing to buy in a foreign country, no matter how well you think you've planned. We've got Turkish aloe, Turkish indigestion pills (acquired when Sean was trying to mime "sun poisoning/nausea" at the pharmacy), Italian Benadryl, and now things like French bandaids and tampons. For the latter, after a failed and awkward attempt to buy them at a pharmacy (where the pharmacist did not speak English, so I had to ask for "produits...feminine?" only to be offered, after she disappeared into the back for a few minutes, a sad box of maxi pads) we wound up at a massive Carrefour, which is basically French Walmart. When we walked in, there were patio sets to your left and a meat counter straight ahead. The French: just like us.

Our next stop from Orange was the idyllic "perched village" of Gordes, on the top of a very steep hill looking out over a picturesque plain, where Sean bought some lavender honey. (I don't know why people enjoy putting lavender in food; I'm not terribly fond of its smell, and in food it tastes like eating perfume, but people like lavender in Provence and so it was offered in everything--Sean's lavender ice cream in Arles was particularly gross, I thought). We had seen a couple of signs on our way in, one for an abbey famous for its lavender fields, and another for the "bories" village, little dwellings made of corbelled stone, which have appeared in France since the Bronze Age. We went first to Senanque, traveling down a mountainside on an insane switchback road. We arrived too late to visit the lovely Romanesque church, and the lavender fields were just barely coming into flower, but it was still extraordinary, one of the most peaceful places I've ever been, located in a little valley with virtually no sounds but the birds. It was easy to understand why the monks chose this isolated spot to pray and work their gardens. Monastic life wouldn't be much of a chore under that beautiful blue sky, in the shadows of those great mountains.

Our last stop of the day was to be the bories. We'd passed the entrance turn-off on our way up, so we thought we'd pop in quickly and then head back to Avignon. Ha. That entrance was merely a red herring. We had to drive some twenty minutes on one of the smallest roads I've ever seen, fearing desperately that we would encounter another car coming the opposite direction (there were pull-offs every few hundred yards for this purpose--not the only place we encountered this method of deal with roads that were created long before cars or even carriages). The Peugeot was not a small car, so it basically took up the entire road, which seemed to get smaller, and curvier, as we worked our way further into what the GPS called "zone not mapped". Finally we arrived at the village of the Bories, patiently waited for the families with kids to actually notice a car trying to maneuver around them in the tiny parking lot (I have never seen anyone with less self-preservation instinct than French children), pay a pretty hefty fee for the ticket, and head in to check out some Bronze Age stuff. Except--it's not Bronze Age at all! These particular bories were built from the 17th through the 19th centuries, as temporary shelters for men working far from their home villages. We felt kind of cheated at first, especially with the price of the ticket and the effort to get there, but climbing in and around the stone structures--which were held together without mortar, by sheer gravity--was kind of cool in the end. They kept everything in those stone huts--sheep, pigs, silkworms. The smell must have been intense.

In the guidebook, I had read about free car parking on the island in the middle of the Rhone river next to Avignon, from where a shuttlebus would drop you back at the city walls. We parked in a fairly abandoned dirt lot, caught the shuttle, and were back in the hotel when I started to freak out about leaving the rental car in that location. I realized that the free parking was probably great for day-trippers, but overnight, a new car, one that we were responsible for? Sean was willing to chance it, but my paranoia induced me to go back out at 9pm (it was basically dusk, the sun lasts so late), walk across town, look in vain for the shuttle, power-walk across the bridge, convincing myself I'm going to get murdered the whole way, race to the car, and park it in an underground, video-surveilled lot that costs 20 euro a day. Whew. That is, until we go to get the car out on Sunday, and discover that the sole pay machine is out of order, and then I read something horrifying on the board, that they are fermee--closed--on Sundays, and freak out. Our car is stuck in the parking lot! We're screwed! We'll have to take the train to Aix and Avignon! Then I saw someone drive their car in, which made no sense if the garage was closed. In desperation I hit the help button near the stairs, and explained to the guy on the other end that the pay box was broken. He told us to drive to the exit, and opened the gate for us remotely--so in the end, we actually saved 20 euro, a rare experience on this expensive voyage. (The garage was indeed fermee when we returned Sunday night, with a gate across the entrance; we parked in another city garage inside the walls inside, where it was only 10 euro a day, go figure!)

On Sunday we visited Aix-in-Provence, home to Cezanne. Most shops were closed, but there was a street market going on, at which we bought some delicious-smelling soaps. We decided to skip visiting Cezanne's last workshop in favor of driving to the lookout point facing Mont St-Victoire, one of his favorite subjects, which I could see in the distance as we drove in (its profile is very recognizable). This turned out to be another one of those tiny, seemingly-impossible-to-be-two-lanes-but-oh-my-god-it-is-why-don't-these-fuckers-go-slower roads, which we followed for twenty minutes or so up a mountain, only to arrive at the designated parking lot to find it 100% filled. And this was not a spot where you could park on the road--there was just the road, and then there was wall or slope or tree, no shoulder, no extra parking lot. We'd come all that way, feeling superior to the shmucks walking or pushing their bikes uphill, only to have to turn tail and go back! We couldn't even linger a minute in the hopes of a departing visitor, as there was were two cars right behind us, one of them a big van. We wished them better luck than we, and left. That's one of the most valuable lessons I've learned from travel: you have to be willing to let things go.  Of course, that's not a lesson I was particularly interested in following in Paris when we arrived, haha, but by the time we were in the south my mood had evolved toward C'est la vie!  Or, in more accurate French (and Julia's favorite phrase): tant pis!

From Cezanne we went to van Gogh in Arles, a much more charming and quaint city than Aix had been. We visited a very lovely church cloister, the Roman arena, the theather, and the cryptoporticus of the ancient Roman forum, which seemed the perfect setting for a Dan Brown novel. And, naturally, we took a picture of the Night Cafe. At this point we were fairly close to the seaside, maybe an hour or less, so we decided to go down to Stes-Maries-de-la-Mer, the site where Mary Magdalen and compatriots were believed to have landed in France. The single road south led us through the marshy Camargue, famous for its white horses, many of whom we saw in farms advertising horse trips on the side of the road. The other thing we noticed was that the northbound lane was positively jammed with cars--all French people headed back from the four-day weekend of Ascension (for a secular nation, they do love them some obscure religious holidays! Not even Italy celebrates Ascension). It was like Cape traffic, though we were luckily going the right way. We told ourselves we'd have to hang out in the town and have dinner, because there was no way we were sitting in that line on our way out.

Once in Stes-Maries-de-la-Mer, which already had the signs of a beach town that has emptied out, we walked out on a long rock pier to look out at the Mediterranean, and then dipped our feet in the freezing water while I picked up some tiny seashells for my sister. We had dinner in what seemed to be a fairly touristy spot, looking out at the water, but which Sean insisted upon because it was the only place offering bouillabaisse for one, instead of for two (and I'm just not interested in seafood soup, sorry). The waiter, who had seemed kind of dismissive (and you know, French) for most of our meal, suddenly became our best friend once he saw that Sean had actually finished the entire soup--a feat he said few rarely accomplish, and which would please the chef mightily. Sean has now received this compliment from waiters on two continents! After that we headed home. It was almost 11, there was still a bit of light in the western sky, and I had Sean pull the car over so we could listen to the bullfrogs in the marshes. No street lights, of course, so it was just the soft darkness and the sounds of nature. It was beautiful. Sean gets kind of unnerved by the absolute darkness, though, so our stop was brief.

That was our Provencal adventure! The food was delicious, the wine tasty, and the people overall much friendlier than in Paris. The next day would bring us to Bordeaux on the west coast.

Vive la France, Première Partie

We're back, and exhausted!  We joke that it's the mark of one of our vacations that you feel like you need another vacation to recover--even though this time we took it rather easy the last few days.

Things didn't start out in the most auspicious manner, I have to admit.  Sean was working up to the very last minute on his last paper of the semester--and by the last minute, I mean that when the limo driver pulled up in the driveway, he was racing to jump in the shower while I proof-read the paper itself.  Sean had rolled his eyes at my insistence on paying for the private car, but it turned out to be not only a stroke of genius but absolutely necessary; we simply wouldn't have made it down to the train station in time.  Instead, our driver, who turned out to be Syrian, waited for us patiently and then talked politics with Sean the whole way to NYC, after discovering their opinions were perfectly in line.  I didn't get his name, unfortunately, but once he found out that my grandmother was Syrian he acted like I was one of the tribe.  (I learned that the word my grandmother applied to her meat and rice dish, hushway [حشو or, as it sounds on Google translate, hush-oo] really just means "stuffing", and in Syria is generally not served on its own...he seemed confused when I told him we put it in pitas!)

Our plane ride to Dublin was short, and I didn't sleep much (the presence of no fewer than three babies in the rows around us didn't help!). I was so tired in Dublin that we scrapped the plan to go into town for breakfast, but Sean still got his Irish breakfast on, right down to the disgusting blood pudding.  Blech!  We arrived in a Paris that was grey and cold, which was pretty disappointing.  Our hotel room was also not what I had expected, despite being told that we were being upgraded to a triple (as I would learn when we came back to the hotel at the end of our trip and got exactly the beautiful room that I thought I'd booked, not protesting this "upgrade" was a mistake).

I will admit that I was not in the best mood that first day or two.  In a twist of our usual roles, Sean found himself in the position of cheerleader to my black gloom!  I had just been looking forward to this trip so much after the hellish year we'd had, and to leave New Haven, where it was climbing the upper 70s, only to have to bundle up in Paris and face the drizzle seemed the ultimate disappointment.

 One immediate bright spot was our first dinner, at Le Felteu, which was a wonderful, entirely non-pretentious establishment with portion sizes on the American, rather than French scale (perhaps this has something to do with the fact that the gruff-but-friendly proprietor, who sported some serious tattoos-- including the word VITRIOL--is apparently a Harley rider, as I learned from a review). The food was fucking amazing, even though we were largely guessing as to what we were ordering.  The "menu" was just a chalkboard that he plunked on the table.  Now, I can read French generally, but that is very little help in a restaurant; I can identify canard, veau, boeuf, etc, but not how it's being prepared. The owner was kind enough, in his limited English and with my zero French, to warn me off the andouillette.  I knew it was a kind of sausage, since I had read about it in Emile Zola's The Belly of Paris, but what Zola did not mention was that it was a tripe sausage.  No thanks.  We had a charcuterie plate to start, and both of us had duck, which came not only with delicious vegetables but a heaping side dish of potatoes gratin.  I'd never had that before, but cheese and potatoes, you really can't go wrong, right?

I was hoping for better weather the next day, but alas, no luck.  We had bought two-day Paris museum passes, and Sean doesn't believe in taking the metro if you can walk for 10 hours straight, so we pretty much went non-stop Wednesday and Thursday.  Our first stop was the Pantheon, burial site of luminaries like Marie Curie and Emile Zola (Sean was very amused by the signage which explained that Voltaire was buried directly across from Rousseau, his sworn enemy).  The first "wow" moment came at the sight of Notre Dame, though I was disappointed by the darkness of the interior.  After waiting a good 30 minutes in line, we were able to climb the towers, which offered an extraordinary view over the city.  I found it more impressive than the view from the Eiffel, which was really too high, and too far from the center, to allow you to connect with what was below.  We had brought along my mom's opera glasses (which actually got my bag searched in Dublin, because they were confused by them on the X-ray; the security woman was then so delighted by how cute they were), so we could look at things quite far distant, which was pretty cool.

In the late afternoon on Wednesday we found ourselves at the Louvre, the day it stays open till 9:45PM.  This proved to be a mistake.  Not only were our feet already very tired, but contrary to my hopes, the museum was no less full than it ever is.  I suppose the drizzly weather had something to do with it.  Anyway, while it was extraordinary to finally see, in person, paintings like the Pastoral Concert or the Belle Ferroniere, it was really hard to appreciate them in a setting that was loud, crowded, and humid from the press of all those bodies.  And forget about Mona Lisa!  The crowd was so thick, it wasn't worth the effort. I've always told my students that she is the rare painting that's better experienced and discussed in a classroom than in person; there's just no way to have a quiet moment with her to understand why she might have any importance at all.  I wasn't disappointed, because I knew it would be like that.  I was more pleased to see paintings like David's Napoleon Crowning Josephine, or Delacroix's Liberty Leading the People, and Gericault's Raft of the Medusa, huge canvases that didn't fail to impress, and which can also stand up to the mass of humanity passing in front of them.

After the Louvre, Sean consented to a taxi back to the hotel, so we could get ready to meet his friend Delphine and her husband Herve for dinner.  We didn't wind up getting a French SIM, so we were relying on Facebook.  She had told us to meet her in front of the city hall at 8pm.  According to Google that was the Hotel de Ville, a massively elaborately 19th-century building with a big empty plaza in front of it that Sean had admired the night before.  At 8pm there we were, huddling under one umbrella.  Sean hadn't seen Delphine since they taught at Xavier together 6 years previously, so he wasn't 100% certain of what she looked like anymore, and as the minutes ticked on, we started to fear that Hotel de Ville and City Hall might somehow not be the same thing.  Luckily, at about 8:20, we spotted her and her husband racing across the plaza.  They had encountered so much traffic coming in from the suburbs that they'd ditched their car and gotten on the metro.

I suppose it was silly of me to expect them to have a place in mind to go, any more than I'd know where to take a foreigner in New York, but it was ironic that in the company of real French people we wound up having dinner in the most touristy restaurant of our whole trip!  On the plus side, our service was great in the company of natives.  This was where Sean tried to order "lapin" as "lapeen" instead of "lahpohn", leading Delphine to later explain that he'd asked for a serving of dick. In the company of friends it was a hysterical mistake, but I'm sure we'd have felt more embarrassed if we'd managed to figure that out when we'd been on our own.  This was also the spot where we tried escargot, and found them delicious.  It's pretty much like a bit of chewy calamari, and they're served drench in pesto.  Again, having friends was helpful because Herve showed Sean how to hold each shell firmly in this little tong device, then scoop the escargot out with a tiny fork.  It's not as simple as it sounds, as I discovered when I tried, but at least no one got splattered with basil.  Herve was also kind enough to pay for the whole meal.

There's something very releasing about sharing a meal with other people, especially in a foreign country, that can improve your spirits dramatically, and that was the turning point for me. As if the weather was  responding, Thursday morning dawned with some sun, and we decided to head to climb the Eiffel tower first thing.  Well, the rest of Paris had gotten this memo too, so it ended up taking us longer to wait in line than to climb its 700 steps!  Still worth it.  We only went to the second level (which is as far as you can climb steps, anyhow), because Sean, in another reversal, was getting freaked out by the heights.  Looking out from the structure on our way down was a little woozy, I'll admit, but there was something about the strength of the iron structure enclosing you that prevented my fear of heights from coming into play; I was actually more nervous going down the narrow, curving staircase inside Notre Dame. Hell, I get nervous on a stepladder!  Meanwhile, Sean is not fazed by standing on a cliff's edge, but a man-made tower makes him nervous. Go figure.

After lunch, our next visit was the Invalides and the church of Saint Louis, which had been re-purposed into a monumental burial site for Napoleon I after his body was returned to France in 1840, while the country was ruled by its last king, Louis-Phillipe of Bourbon. We particularly admired the propaganda in the relief sculptures decorating the lower level, which touted Napoleon's many achievements, not only military, but in terms of education, the Napoleonic code, etc, all of it presented in lovely Neoclassical fashion.  In the Museum of the Army in the Invalides, Sean discovered a whole wing dedicated to World Wars I and II, which he insisted we visit.

It really was interesting, as much as I groused about going in, to see things from the French perspective, particularly World War I, largely fought on their territory.  The reading I had done before the trip had enlightened me about the far-reaching consequences of 1870-1, when Emperor Napoleon III's failed war against Germany led to his capture, the fall of the Second Empire, the uprising (and brutal quelling) of the Paris Commune, and, most keenly felt in French pride, the loss of Alsace-Lorraine to the Germans.  The ensuing decades saw a steep rise in nationalism, machismo, and the need to absolve the stain on French honor, whether on the sports field or the battlefield. The Great War, when it came, was France's chance, and when it was over, even though their country and economy were decimated, they took their opportunity to punish Germany thoroughly for a slight committed nearly fifty years earlier.  And, of course, we all know how that turned out.  In fact, one of the most instructive points for me was in the display of military costumes, by all interested parties, from the late 19th century through WWII, demonstrating how the showy grandeur of the 19th century slowly reappeared in the interwar period, a symbolic example of France's failure to modernize its military--the failure that would doom them against the German invasion in 1940.

Later that afternoon we made two other stops, first to Saint Chapelle, one of the most glorious monuments of Gothic stained glass, and to the Musee Cluny, the medieval museum.  Sean was wowed by Saint Chapelle, more than I think I've ever seen him moved by any post-classical monument. The Cluny museum was interesting too, but by then our feet were really dragging.  It was time to pack up our things and get ready to head out to Avignon in the morning.

TBC...

Montaigne

"For likewise these are my humors and opinions; I offer them as what I believe, not what is to be believed.  I aim here only at revealing myself, who will perhaps be different tomorrow, if I learn something new which changes me."

I suppose it was a hopeless project to think I could revisit even a good sampling of Montaigne's many essays before our trip...I'm not even through Book One, and it's due back to the library tomorrow.  Oh well.  Two tidbits I wanted to save:

On the need to inspire curiosity in children regarding their education: "there is nothing like arousing appetite and affection; otherwise all you make out of them is asses loaded with books.  By dint of whipping, they are given their pocketful of learning for safekepping; but if learning is to do us any good, we must not merely lodge it within us, we must espouse it."

One of his most famous essays is "On Friendship", in which he discusses his intense bond with Etienne de la Boetie. ("So many coincidences are needed to build up such a friendship that it is a lot if fortune can do it once in three centuries.") They only knew each other for six years before de la Boetie died, and yet he writes "what we ordinarily called friends and friendships are nothing but acquaintanceships and familiarities formed by some chance or convenience...in the friendship I speak of, our souls mingle and blend with each other so completely that they efface the seam that joined them, and cannot find it again.  If you press me to tell why I loved him, I feel that this cannot be expressed, except by answering, Because it was he, because it was I."  It's tempting to read a love that was deeper than friendship into that statement.  One the one hand, the same essay does disregard the idea of a woman as the object of a true friendship...but it also contains a condemnation of "Greek love." Based on my Googling, theirs has been referred to as a "romantic friendship" to indicate the depth of feeling that was separate from sexual activity.

The Art of Travel

I'm not generally that into the Ted Talks, but a while back I came across one by philosopher Alain de Botton on the meaning of success.  One point that has stood out in my memory was his observation that the same people who society considered "unfortunates" in the ancient through early modern world are today called "losers", signifying a shift in how we assign responsibility for lack of success: once it was ascribed to forces beyond human control, but now it implies innate worthlessness.  Overall I was interested in his mode of address and his ideas, so I put some of his books, especially Status Anxiety, on my to-read list.  Then I saw that he'd written an a book entitled The Art of Travel, in the introduction to which he notes that despite all of the massive literature on where to go, there's very little written on why we go, or what we hope to gain from it.  There are a number of thematic essays in the book, each interspersing a personal journey of his own with the ideas of a "guide", among which are found Wordsworth, the naturalist Alexander van Humboldt, van Gogh, and Flaubert.  I found his many of his observations fascinating and on-point, but when I tried to share some of them with Sean, he was turned off by what seemed to him their "obviousness." (I later learned from his Wikipedia page that this division of opinions on his work is fairly standard!)

Here are some of the things that struck me:

• On travel in real life vs. travel as it's presented in art: "A travel book may tell us, for example, that the narrator journeyed through the afternoon to reach the hill town of X and after a night in its medieval monastery awoke to a misty dawn. But we never simply 'journey through an afternoon.'  We sit in a train.  Lunch digests awkwardly within us.  The seat cloth is grey.  We look at the window at a field.  We look back in side...It starts to rain.  A drop wends a muddy path down the dust-coated window. We wonder where our ticket might be [this goes on for an entire paragraph!].  A storyteller who provided us with such a profusion of details would rapidly grow maddening.  Unfortunately, life itself often subscribes to this mode of storytelling, wearing us out with repetitions, misleading emphases and inconsequential plotlines."  [Sean: So what?  Of course an author isn't going to write all that stuff, it'd be boring.  Me: But isn't it interesting to think about all the stuff they leave out?  Sean: No, because it's boring.]
• After reflecting on train travel as conducive to contemplative thought: "Journeys are the midwives of thought...At the end of hours of train-dreaming, we may feel we have been returned to ourselves--that is, brought back into contact with emotions and ideas of importance to us.  It is not necessarily at home that we best encounter our true selves.  The furniture insists that we cannot change because it cannot; the domestic setting keeps us tethered to the person we are in ordinary life, who may not be who we essentially are."
• On our delight with points of difference in other cultures and places, whether an airport sign or a jam jar: "Yet difference alone would not be enough to elicit pleasure, or not for long.  The difference has to seem like an improvement on what my own country is capable of...what we find exotic abroad may be what we hunger for in vain at home."
• From a letter by Flaubert, on his deep hatred of his home country and the notion of national identities: "I'm no more modern than ancient, no more French than Chinese, and the idea of a native country--that is to say, the imperative to live on one bit of ground marked red or blue on the map and to hate the other bits in green or black--has always seemed to me narrow-minded, blinkered and profoundly stupid.  I am a soul brother to everything that lives, to the giraffe and to the crocodile as much as to man."
• On his lifelong passion for the East, which resulted in a 9-month stay in Egypt that would remain with him for the rest of his life: "Why did Flaubert so admire the camel?  Because he identified with its stoicism and ungainliness.  He was touched by its sad expression and its combination of awkwardness and fatalistic resilience.  The people of Egypt seemed to share some of the camel's qualities, exhibiting a silent strength and humility that contrasted with the bourgeois arrogance of Flaubert's own Norman neighbors."
• On the need for curiosity when we travel, particularly a curiosity about something in particular that has had time to develop: "A danger of travel is that we may see things at the wrong time, before we have had an opportunity to built up the necessary receptivity...the risk is compounded by geography, in the way that cities contain buildings or monuments that may be only a few feet apart in space but are leagues apart in terms of what is required to appreciate them...We are asked to be curious about Gothic architecture on one street and then fascinated by Etruscan archaeology on the next."
• On the travels of Alexander von Humboldt, who traveled to the still virtually-unknown continent of South America and returned to Europe with vast data sets about its geography, ethnography, biology, climate, etc.: an early biography of him was subtitled What May Be Accomplished in a Lifetime--to which de Botton adds, "and seldom or never is."
• On Wordsworth's belief in the harmful effects of cities on the human soul: "The poet accused cities of fostering a family of life-destroying emotions: anxiety about our position in the social hierarchy, envy at the success of others, pride and a desire to shine in the eyes of strangers...however well-provided for, they had a relentless desire for new things, which they did not genuinely lack and on which their happiness did not depend."
• On the emergence of the concept of the sublime with the Romanticists: "A landscape cold arouse the sublime only when it suggested power--a power greater than that of humans, and threatening to them.  Sublime places embodied a defiance to man's will...It is no coincidence that the Western attraction to sublime landscapes developed at precisely the moment when traditional beliefs in God began to wane.  It is as if these landscapes allowed travellers to experience transcendent feelings that they no longer felt in cities and the cultivated countryside."
• Ruskin's words to the Working Men's College, where he was teaching drawing with the goal of teaching people to observe the world more closely: "Now, remember, gentlemen, that I have not been teaching you to draw, only to see.  Two men are walking through Clare Market.  One of them comes out at the other end not a bit wiser than when he went into; the other notices a bit of parsely hanging over the edge of a butter-woman's basket, and carries away with him images of beauty which in the course of his daily work he incorporates with it for many a day.  I want you to see things like these..."

Commonplace some of these points might be, but I enjoyed reflecting on them in light of our travels, and especially on the eve of our next journey through France.  I especially enjoyed the chapter on "Eye-Opening Art", in which he explores how his original lackluster impression of Provence was changed through his experience of van Gogh (thanks to a charismatic PhD student leading a van Gogh tour in Arles, naturally!). His distaste for the low, gnarled forms of the grapevines amused me, because I had something of a similar experience.  The school in Florence had arranged for a Chianti tour, and when we arrived in the vineyard I was shocked to to that those ugly, stooped plants, which I had seen in innumerable fields out the windows of trains as we traveled around Italy, were really grapevines...to think I didn't even like wine back then.  Oh, 2006, how distant you seem!

Leaving Books Behind

I've thought before about the question of what books I'd bring to a desert island (isn't it interesting that this hypothetical assumes that you'll somehow be given advance notice of your impending exile, not to mention allowed luggage?).  Books that almost always find a place on the list include Pride and Prejudice, Vanity Fair, Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell, Lake Woebegone days, my Jeeves & Wooster omnibus edition, and Innocents Abroad.  There's a second-tier, too, which includes books I'm fond of and have re-read many times but could probably leave behind, like Illusion, or Howl's Moving Castle, or Judith Merkle Riley's books.  Of course, this kind of listmaking is just done idly; you never think you'll have to make those kinds of decisions.  That is, until you start thinking about your impending move to a foreign country.  Even within 100 lbs of checked luggage, there's not a lot of room for novels. 

The classics, like Austen and Twain, present no problem, because their e-books are cheap.  I already put Innocents Abroad and its semi-sequel, A Tramp Abroad, on my tablet, for example.  But what about the others?  Few of them are new or popular enough to be available within the e-lending libraries to which I have access (though Diana Wynne Jones' books are in the New Haven library's digital catalog), and since Kindle books cost $7-10, on average, replacing a bookshelf's worth of material with digital versions would be pretty expensive.  That means if I want any hard copies, I'll have to make some difficult choices on who gets to travel with me.  I can probably also acquire some books at the Paperback Exchange in Florence, or an equivalent store, if there is one, in Rome.  

I don't really look forward to a future filled only with e-books; I don't mind them (I just finished Zola's The Ladies' Paradise yesterday on my tablet, actually), but I'd always prefer a physical copy if I can get one.  What's annoying is that there is no version of the second-hand store or library tag sale for e-books; they're always new, never used--and thus never deeply discounted.  Would any e-book purchase ever be able to equal the price-to-value ratio of acquiring Lake Woebegone Days at the PapEx for 0.25 euro cents??

Another Philly Farewell

I got really lucky with the weather yesterday.  It drizzled and rained through most of CT, NY, and NJ, then cleared in NJ and PA; by the time I reached Philadelphia, it was warm and sunny.   I got to enjoy the late-afternoon light on the patio, with a couple of past issues of the New Yorker and a glass of the Riesling that  Phyllis texted me to tell me I should open.  In other words, whitest afternoon ever.

I guess I had forgotten that this region changes seasons a couple of weeks in advance of Connecticut, so where all the green things are just budding around New Haven, everything is in full and glorious bloom here.  In fact, I came too late to see the pink cherry blossom tree out front in all its true glory; it blooms in early May, and by the second week is already disgorging its blossoms onto the hapless cars parked below. I couldn't help smiling at the sight of the car that was positive covered in pink petals, parked in what used to be my spot--it might be pretty on the tree, but on your car it's a damned nuisance to get rid of without a full-scale car wash.

After dinner, Phyllis and I went over to Chestnut Hill, parked, and walked around in some of the leafy neighborhood streets.  We wound up walking down Gravers Lane, though not the side you'd typically use as an artery onto Germantown.  It was filled with beautiful houses, most probably from the late 19th century. One of the benefits of an area that's been lived in for so long by people with money to spend on landscaping is the profusion of flowering trees and plants.  Apple blossom, lilac, verbena, bleeding hearts...so many pretty sights and even more delicious smells!

Phyllis' soon-to-be-departed housemate, Laura, is off in Italy with her boyfriend right now, so when I got here yesterday I took the opportunity to go up to the third floor, which I haven't seen since I moved out.  It was strange, peering into rooms that are both familiar and not.  Laura doesn't have many material possessions, apparently, so aside from her bed frame, all of the furniture up there is either things Phyllis had donated over the course of my tenure, or that I had left behind.  The crappy Ikea couch that I'd put away in the storage room after Thomas peed on it (I guess the smell faded? I could never get it out); the little metal bedside table that I think I absconded with from Shelton; the bureau, one of my mom's tag sale finds, with the drawers that were always a pain to shut; the rocking chair; and the blue couch in the front room, which I kept covered by a green top sheet while I lived there (and now it's obvious how much more faded it is than the fitted sheet, from its years in the sun).  My green curtains are still up in the windows, too.

I miss the wonderful light-filled expanse of that front room.  I stood in front of the windows--finally seeing over the treetops again--and remembered practicing for my exams there in front of my DIY standing desk (stacks of art history books on the windowsill with my laptop perched on top, rolled-up yoga mat under my feet).  When it came to my oral exam, I paced in huge circles, talking to myself out loud, faking all the confidence that I didn't feel at the time.  It's been two years since then, which is kind of hard to believe.  Then again, when I told Phyllis that Sean and I would be celebrating our five-year wedding anniversary this year, she looked shocked.  Where does the time go, indeed.

Tonight, off to Morgan's Pier to see my friends--time to toast Jasmine's doctorate, Laura's upcoming defense, Suzanne's new job. I'm not planning to come down to Philadelphia again, so while Phyllis I'll see in Connecticut, and even Dr. Cooper told me she'd like to get together in Princeton over the summer, this is my last hurrah with them.

Busy, Busy

It's been something of a whirlwind the past few weeks.  Sean is almost at the finish line of the semester, having passed (with revisions) his second qualifying paper.  Doing not one, but two qualifying papers within the span of a month required many nights that were quite literally sleepless; there was a point at which he turned off the TV and remarked to me that it had probably been on for 48 hours straight.  It also led to a (mild) outbreak of shingles, brought on by the stress!  But his perseverance has really paid off, since he's now caught up on his requirements, after a long and grueling year.  2013 was the annus horribilis, and 2014 got off to a bit of a rocky start, but we're getting there.

I'm done with on-campus teaching now for the next couple of years, though I will be teaching the online AWW again this summer.  One student in my NVCC class, Spencer, gave me a 1972 copy of the Janson survey as a parting gift; another student, a woman named Saranda (who I later learned works for the mayor of Waterbury) told me it was the best class she'd ever taken.  That's always really great to hear, especially from people at the community college.  Fairfield students, on account of their generally greater economic privilege, tend to have a broader cultural grounding.  It's not that they have knowledge or appreciation, necessarily, but in general they have more exposure, plenty of them have traveled abroad, for example, or visited art museums.  That's much less the case at NVCC, and it's very seductive, as an instructor, to have the feeling that you are quite literally introducing students to entirely new worlds. That doesn't mean I don't appreciate the compliments I received from some of my Fairfield students, of course.

But it's not always positive feedback.  The day of my sister's bridal shower, I woke up to an abuse-filled email from an anonymous Fairfield student, in which I was twice called a cunt, upbraided for daring to consider art history a course about which students should actually give a damn, and generally insulted.  It was long, bitter, and reflected an extremely selfish, consumer-oriented understanding of what college is actually about.  The nugget that revealed its origin was the complaint that I dared to grade papers on anything beyond the thesis and whether it was backed up.  You know, on things like reliability or sources, or indeed, presence of sources at all within a research paper.  I gave three Ds and three C-s this semester, whether for plagiarism (including copying directly from Wikipedia--genius!), for using irrelevant sources or making up sources, or for just having no actual research present.  All of them were male students except for one girl, who the chair of my department suggested as the most likely culprit of the email, since her initials matched part of it.  It's not enough to do anything about in a disciplinary sense, of course, but it was satisfying for me to give her a C+ as her final grade.

I'm also getting ready for our trip to France in a couple of weeks by beefing up my French literature and history reaching.  I'm working on the Cambridge Illustrated History of France, which is a very readable brief survey, as well as Montaigne's Essays.  We're going to go to Montaigne's house and see where he wrote, which is exciting!  Also on tap is Emile Zola's The Ladies' Paradise, which inspired the BBC The Paradise series which I've been watching (the only piece of Zola's 20-volume cycle of novels that I've read was Germinal in Court's HI30 class, and I remember hating it, but I wonder now if it was the style that bothered me, or the subject matter--the exploitation of the working class by the bourgeoisie in a mining town, and the inevitable bloody reprisal).  Beyond that, I feel like I should squeeze in some Baudelaire if I can....Stendhal...Flaubert?  There's no way I can do all this in a couple of weeks, obviously, especially since I really need to start focusing on dissertation research.  Still, when I can spend a couple of hours in the late afternoon reading French history in the sunlight that's coming into the living room, with a pot of pea soup simmering on the stove, it's been a good day.

But perhaps the first essayist would not agree, with his typical self-deprecating humor:

"If I had written to seek the world's favor, I should have bedecked myself better, and should present myself in a studied posture.  I want to be seen here in my simple, natural, ordinary fashion, without straining or artifice, for it is myself that I portray.  My defects will here be read to the life, and also my natural form, as far as respect for the public has allowed.  Had I been placed among those nations which are said to live still in the sweet freedom of nature's first laws, I assure you that I should very gladly have portrayed myself here entire and wholly naked. Thus, reader, I am myself the matter of my book; you would be unreasonable to spend your leisure on so frivolous and vain a subject.  So farewell. Montaigne, this first day of March, fifteen hundred and eighty."

:-/

Jen, Vinny, and I all went up to the Cape last weekend to see my aunt and her family.  Originally the trip was planned as a chance for Sean to collect oysters (it was the last weekend of the season) but he had to back out because he had too much work.  We still went, though, plucking gross-looking, briny-smelling, barnacle-covered oysters from the muck of low tide.  Honestly, I don't know who ever thought of trying to eat these suckers, or how they even realized they could be opened (Despite the Christmas gifts of oyster glove and knife, Sean still managed to wound himself once I brought the precious treats home, and my uncle cut himself right there at the water just by holding them in his hand).  I had a really good time, even with my sister's, you know, very presence.  I really enjoy my aunt and uncle's company, and I enjoy my cousins, Sara and Tyler.  We didn't spend that much time together when we were younger, and once we were all entering teen years I feel like we barely spoke, but now that we're all adults it's like discovering new and interesting people for the first time.

My aunt had mentioned a persistent pain in her hip that she'd already been seeing doctors about, which no one could explain.  Someone in her office had decided to be that person and basically tell her "it's cancer, here's a test you need to ask for."  Donna was polite, and didn't tell them she'd already had that test, that they'd taken CAT scans and bloodwork, etc.  She was scheduled to go back to the doctor on Monday for some more tests, and it turned out to be lymphoma.  She was given the diagnosis on Wednesday, though they still haven't told her which variant she has.  She will have to undergo chemo and radiation, and, typical Donna, she told me on the phone yesterday that she'd have started first thing Thursday if she could have!  I love Donna's attitude about most things, and I told her, she's got the best attitude one could ask for from a patient, a mixture of cheerfulness and pragmatism.  As it happens, one of my uncle's longtime clients is the chairman of the board of Dana Farber, so he went to talk to him yesterday, and my my aunt's going to be seeing the very best specialist they have.

I had left my phone in the car on Friday night, and Saturday morning when I went grocery shopping it appeared to be dead.  I forgot it in the car again.  Saturday evening I called Jen to make sure she had received my email about Easter, and she sounded so dour.  She wouldn't tell me at first, saying it "wasn't her place", but finally she did, swearing me, naturally, not to tell Donna (Jen gets weirdly fixated on protocol sometimes; if Donna told you, and left me a voicemail to call her, so that she could also tell me, why would you think we have to keep it secret from each other??).  When I called my aunt, she asked if I'd talked to my sister and said she had something to tell me, and I was like "nope, already taken care of, you don't have to break it to me" and she burst out laughing and said "oh thank God!"  I mean, how many times do you really want to have to give people the "I have cancer" talk?

I also talked to Janice, who Donna had informed me was already trying to "manage" things, in her Janice way, from Arizona.  Within a day she'd already mustered all the Rhode Island cousins and aunts, for example, and read more info on lymphoma than Donna had.  Janice told me that Donna had considered waiting till after Jen's shower in a couple of weeks to tell us, but Janice had advised her to go ahead, with the caveat "tell Michelle first."  Haha.  Whoops.  But I knew that it would be difficult for Janice--her life in AZ is not that great, she's got one unpleasant lump of a sick husband and one ungrateful lump of a gun-obsessed son.  She relies a lot on Donna (in fact, Donna and I had talked, a couple of months ago, about how depressed Janice seemed, and Donna told me that she was shocked when Janice informed her sister that she wasn't giving her the emotional validation that she needed; specifically, she needed my aunt to tell her that she was being a good wife and mother and making the right choice to live in AZ), so it's going to be hard on her as well, since she'll probably feel like she can't talk about her problems--even though Donna, I know, would prefer nothing to be different!  When Janice was telling me "well, I know now I have to be really strong for her" I was laughing to myself thinking, "welllll, your sister doesn't want you to be that strong" because Donna had already complained about it.  Sisters!

Anyway, Jen is coming here in a few hours, and I fear that she's going to be really unpleasant and depressed.  I feel like an asshole for saying this, but Jen always takes these things as much to heart as if it were happening to her.  When Janice decided to move, for example, Jen felt that as a personal affront, that one of her only relatives was daring to move away, and I swear she is still holding that as a grudge!  I mean, illness happens, and I will firmly trust that Donna will be OK until I hear otherwise; she will certainly have the best care, and she's got the best attitude.  But I suspect Jen perceives this in terms of how it would affect her if something happened to Donna.  Again, this probably makes me sound like a jerk, but Jen is really unpleasant when she's moody.  She might make the punch-me face!  She might cry!  God, if she cries over Mom today because of this (especially after my father's 14th anniversary, on Tuesday, got zero acknowledgment), I don't know what I'll do.  Drink more, probably!

It's Official!

Last Thursday night was the Rome Prize award ceremony in NYC, and it was a blast.  Linda and I took the train in together in the afternoon, since I had to have my photo taken at AAR's office.  I wasn't expecting to be plunged into scholarly "on" mode as soon as we walked in the door, but there were a whole bunch of Rome Prize winners crowded into the main office waiting to have their pictures taken, and many of them were definitely "on".  I was expecting basic, polite chit-chat, but instead people were launching into detailed explanations of their research projects or their art forms and whatnot.  One very nice, but very talkative man, John, had my ear for a good 20 minutes or so.

After the photo we were free for a bit, so we grabbed lunch at a diner recommended by the doormen, and spent an all-too-brief half hour walking in Central Park.  It amazes me how little of Central Park I've ever really seen.  Mostly I think I've been around the Metropolitan in the mid-80s, but AAR's office is on 60th and 5th ave, right at the bottom right corner where the park begins, with a skating rink for winter, a dairy, and the zoo.  Although it was windy, the sun was out and the air smelled fresh, so we were reluctant to go back inside for the next event, which turned out to be a sort of informal introduction to Academy life by the CEO, Mark Robbins, and the outgoing director, Chris Celenza, who were as funny as a comedy duo, riffing off each other.

Then it was time to cross the street to the elaborate Harmonie Club, where Dr. Cooper and Tim were waiting.  Coop and Linda were delighted with each other, which was great, since I had to sit separately with the other prize winners.  By this time I'd met several very friendly fellow-Fellows, including Lakshmi and Heather, both classicists; Denise, a modern Italian studies historian; and Liz, a novelist.  I had also begun to realize how few of the Rome Prize fellows are pre-doctoral students--most of the winners seemed to be established scholars working on book projects.  The ceremony itself was full of speeches about how we all represented the peak of excellent in our fields, etc.etc., and while it felt awesome to be included in this group, it's also like: "How is it that I, who haven't written a word of my dissertation project, am being discussed in the same breath as people who have multiple books and tenure track jobs?  I haven't even DONE anything yet!"

During the reception, which was a mob scene, I spoke with David Stone from UDel, who has spoken at Temple before (and didn't remember me, though we had dinner with him); he's one of the trustees.  Dr. Cooper introduced me to Jack Wasserman, one of the founding members of Temple's art history department.  He and his wife must be filthy rich, because they divide their time between Society Hill in Philly and Rome, just a short distance from the Academy!  They insisted I need to come to their place when I get settled, and his wife informed me "I'll make you scrambled eggs!"  Very specific, but also very generous.  I also saw members of my Prize committee, Diane Cole Ahl and Ellen Rosand (DR, alas, wasn't able to come), as well as Mary Frank, who is on the board and one of PFB's alumnae from Princeton.

It was great to have Linda there with me.  Initially when she offered to go, knowing Sean, with a QP to present in the morning, wouldn't be able to, I told her not to bother, because I figured it would be weird for her, but she had a great time.  She and Coop both liked each other (Coop told me she knows where Sean gets his charm now), and like everyone else in the room she was absolutely blown away by the lecture, by John Ochsendorf from MIT on historic conservation of structures and Guastavino-style vaulting.  Originally appearing in Moorish architecture, this vaulting system uses thin bricks that are more like tiles, placed end-to-end instead of vertically like in a  Roman vault, and secured only with mortar into broad, low vaults that are incredibly strong despite their lack of load-bearing supports.  An Italian emigrant named Guastavino brought the technique to the US, and his vaults appear in buildings all over the country, including the Cathedral of St. John the Divine in NYC and Yale's own Bicentennial Hall.   While in Rome, he discovered that the Academy's dining patio had this kind of vaulting above it, and in order to study and stress-test it, Ochsendorf constructed a huge replica in his AAR studio and then load-tested by having other fellows come hop up and down on it!

All in all, a fun, though exhausting day.  Now it's all out in the open, woohoo!

A Long, Lovely Weekend in New York

I had a great time at RSA a week or so ago.  San Diego was too far to travel last year, but NYC is practically in my backyard, relatively speaking; in fact, it was being held at the same Hilton where I attended my very first conference in 2007 as a college senior, just trying to get a sense of what the academic world was like on the advice of my then-adviser, Jesus.  That conference was CAA, the bigger, rougher, discipline-wide conference for all art historians; RSA, though no less crowded or fast-paced is widely considered to be a friendlier environment.  What can I say, we early modernists are just nice folk all around...

I actually delayed registering for the conference until the very last minute in December.  At the time I felt so uncertain about my future in the field: what if I was paying $150 for a conference I'd be too depressed to go to, if I got rejected from all of my grant applications?  Happily, the reverse was true; once I was freshly injected with self-confidence by news of the grants I'd won, I started actually looking forward to the conference, not only to see my friends and Dr. Cooper, but to actually talk to other scholars--the dreaded "networking"!

It's part of the curious calculus practiced by conference attendees that everyone is perpetually flicking their gazes at the chests of the people around them, trying to get a glimpse of the all-important name tag.  If your name isn't recognizable to them, your institutional affiliation is the next best thing.  Having an Ivy League school listed under your name is likely going to net you a slightly different reception than someone from the University of Iowa--but on the other hand, your interlocutor may know someone on the faculty at UI, or have gone there, factors that will also influence how willing they may be to take time to talk to you.  Then there's the weight of your adviser; Temple may not be an Ivy, but among Venetianists Dr. Cooper happens to be a heavyweight, so that connection works well in my favor.

She's also deeply committed to networking, enough so that when I spotted her on the first morning, she greeted me, kissed me on both cheeks, and then immediately pushed me at Ed Muir, one of most venerable Venetian historians.  Did I mention we hadn't met in person for an actual year?  Or that I did not in fact have anything specific to talk to Muir about?   The longest words I exchanged with her were during the closing reception after I told her I'd have to head out.  At one point Jasmine complained that she felt Coop was ignoring her, but nope, it was all of us.  Dr. Cooper is most on her game in a crowd of people, all of whom she can instantly remember in terms of first meeting, subject of research, useful connections for her students, etc. etc.  It's both impressive and a bit frightening. 

This conference marked the first time I've felt confident introducing myself to scholars without Coop's aegis.  It is amazing what the knowledge of a Rome Prize can do for the self-confidence, as well as the awareness that people really do find my research topic interesting!  I was also happy to realize that I've begun making connections beyond the Temple web of students or friends of Coop's; I ran into Colin, a guy from the University of Toronto I met in Venice a couple of years ago, at the first session, and also Marsha, a girl from Johns Hopkins who was at Middlebury with me.  As it turns out she's writing her dissertation on Sebastiano del Piombo, a Venetian who transferred to Rome and became BFFs with Michelangelo for a few years before they had a nasty falling-out.  We've discussed sponsoring a panel together at the next RSA meeting in Berlin (convenient that I'll already be in Europe).

Among the Temple students, I will admit, I felt like something of a rock star.  Cooper and Hall have apparently been touting my achievements, though all is still officially hush-hush until this week's award ceremony, and there was a certain sense of awe among the younger students.  Even super-intense Tiffany, who I went to great lengths to avoid last year in Rome, didn't bother me overmuch.  Brad, though, I found as annoyingly intense as ever (I made a joke about how Dr. Hall flat-out told me she'd forgotten about me last fall, and he responded, very seriously, "but aren't you concerned about that?  Having left?"  Um, fuck you very much, I think I've done alright. How are your nine proposal drafts and conspicuous lack of grants coming?)  Another example of my gleeful schadenfreude: one of our lunches included a girl who did her master's at Temple in my group and then went to UDel for her PhD.  I never liked her, as she always seemed very sneakily competitive, so it amused me to hear her mention excitedly that a friend of hers had just won the Kress to the Hertziana.  You mean the fellowship I turned down for my awesome-r Rome Prize?  Muahaha.  I didn't say anything, obviously, but the evil laughter was definitely in my thoughts. 

Finally and at last, I also no longer feel in Jasmine's shadow.  I don't even really mind the certain sense of know-it-all ness that she brings to all things Rome.  Well, maybe I do a little.  Let's see, so far she's informed me that the Academy library is far inferior to the Hertziana's, so I'll want to use the latter's all the time (which is true), that Academy people are insular and pretentious (which could definitely be true), and that most of the fellows tend to stay up on the hill and not be out in the city (which could also be true).  Jasmine is never being malicious, just sharing her experience, but a few times I thought to myself "my fellowship is more prestigious than yours and you can't get a job, so pipe down!"  I am a terrible person, sometimes, especially in the privacy of my thoughts.  To her credit, she did introduce me to the head of the Minerva research project at the BH, and to an Italian post-doc there, Elena, who also previously held an affiliated Rome Prize.  She told me that one of the perks of the Academy is that they pick you up in a black SUV from the airport (which is extra awesome since I will have god knows how many bags with me).  The BH doesn't do that, do they?  Fuck yeah.

The other fantastic thing that happened at the conference was meeting Ellen Rosand, who told me bluntly that she had nothing to do with my winning the Rome Prize, and that my interview was simply the best one she'd ever seen.  Wow.  She went on to say that she'd "had a feeling" everything would work out after meeting me in January.  Interestingly, from the same event, Pat Brown told Dr. Cooper that she was very impressed with how I presented myself.  (I don't know exactly what I was doing that was so great, clutching my glass of prosecco like a lifeline as I circulated aimlessly in a room in which the only people I knew were the important folk everyone else was trying to talk to at the same time. But I will keep on trying to do it).

Ellen apparently also approached Coop to tell her the same thing about me later, because Coop told me at the reception that I must have really impressed her.  She confirmed my suspicious that she'd not a terribly warm woman in general.  So different from her husband, who seemed very frail at the first panel where I saw them both.  Afterward I went over to say hello, where he was sitting with another Titian scholar, Matthias Wivel, to whom I'd introduced myself earlier in the day, and he actually stopped talking to him to stand up and talk to me (while I was urging him to stay seated, since the poor man was leaning on a cane).  He told me with a chuckle that it was probably for the best he hadn't written for me, since Ellen would have had to recuse herself from my committee, and that he was really looking forward to seeing me develop.  I thanked him, but inwardly I couldn't get away from how frail he seemed. 

This has been a very long post, but I wanted to leave something to remind me of this conference, which felt like a kind of turning point for me, as I start to take my place in the community of scholars, instead of lingering nervously at the fringes, afraid to approach anyone.  This time there were no walks in the sunshine with my friends like in DC two years ago, or drinking bottles of wine in our hotel rooms in the late afternoon, but it was an awesome experience!

The Definition of "Random"

I came home this evening to the following email:

Dear Ms DiMarzo,

I wanted to thank you and Temple University for making AWW available on YouTube. I was an undergraduate Art History major at Oberlin College in 60's, before diverting to med school. Your lectures were a great refresher for me, especially before travelling to Milan.  My compliments on your great lecture style, and I believe I detected extra effort on your part with supplementary material for your students.  I personally appreciated the historical context provided which I  don't always remember getting as an undergrad.  

Best wishes, 

Arthur P. Liang, MD, MPH

 Sr Advisor for Food Safety 

CDC

Atlanta, Ga

I was terribly flattered, of course, except for the part where I had no freaking clue that those videos were publicly viewable.  I thought I made them all private!  Apparently not. I checked my other Youtube account and my videos have been viewed a collected 897 times, with 81 subscribers.

Now I'm torn on what to do.  I thought those videos were for an audience of ten Temple University students, not random people on the internet.  What if I said something completely off-base in one of those lectures? (I absolutely can't bear to go back and listen to them, it's too freaking weird). I mean, those kids wouldn't have known (too busy cheating on their homework) but I have this perverse fear that I'm going to be called to account by some specialist in Cezanne, or something (the module on Impressionism/Post-Impressionism has been viewed the most times, almost 200).  The other issue is that I'm teaching the class again this summer.  Remove all the videos and post new ones, leaving the channel open? Delete them all and start a totally new channel?

At any rate, I wrote to Dr. Liang to tell him how happy I was that a former AH student was interested in the lectures.  He undoubtedly gained more from it than any of my actual students!

Whew

This has been a fun, but long, weekend.  On Friday night we went to Kelly's to watch the Providence NCAA game with Sean's friends (they lost).  We told them our Rome news, and Pinto rejoiced at the prospect of drunk pseudo-bachelor Sean antics, which have memorably including scaling a wrought-iron fence to knock at one of the secret societies, and blowing $200 with Ward on a single a dinner (happily, this time around I will have the wives/girlfriends for added surveillance).

We were somewhat unexpectedly invited to dinner Saturday night at the home of Raffaela and Bob, two of Sean's professors who are married.  Another couple, Jason and his wife Kim, as well as a first-year British student, Matt, were invited.  None of us were quite sure about how we got on this guest list, but we were all pleased to be there.  They're both very friendly and funny people, their house was lovely, and the conversation was a lot of fun.  Sean and I have reflected before on the wonders of the dinner party; in the right setting and mix, a dinner party allows you to have fresh conversations with a limited set of strangers, as opposed either to hanging out with friends you already know well, or being forced to mingle with a big crowd at a house party.  We don't have a varied enough acquaintance to really pull off dinner parties, but Phyllis was an acknowledged master of the fruitful mixing of guests from different circles and backgrounds.  In fact, the only dinner party we've attended that wasn't given by an adult or adult couple was Ward and Kathy, when they invited us, one of his friends from college, and one friend from his brief teaching stint.  It was a lot of fun, and we had regretted at the time that we just don't mix widely enough to be able to go to a lot of similar events.

That's not to say that regular friends aren't good company!  This morning, Sean and I went up to West Hartford to have brunch with Sara and Zach, who were in town to do some pre-wedding shopping with her mom, who had unfortunately gotten pretty sick.  We squeezed into the Quaker Diner across the street, which somehow we've never tried in all these years.   After lunch, Sara showed us a bunch of photo albums from high school and college which induced both "awws" and "aahhhhhs", plus one truly horrific photo of us from 8th grade, which both guys had a serious cackle over.  Heather was in town too, as it happened, but couldn't meet us since she was going to lunch in honor of Melissa, another bride-to-be.  Too bad, because Sara actually had a photo of Sean on the night he really met her for the first time, when she demonstrated both titty-fucking and her Brazilian wax.  Zach looked at Sara and said, "wait, that story's legit?"  Yup.  Trial by fire, my friend.

This afternoon we did some shopping, during which Sean actually purchased an item, a blazer, from a thrift store!  This is true progress.  He was, however, more excited about the 12 cassette tapes he picked up, several of them, like "Best of the Late 1940s" still in their cellophane wrappers.  Score!

RIP

Rocky was put to sleep last night, rather unexpectedly, although he was very old (91 in human years)!  I found myself crying more at the pathos of the scene in which everyone else was sobbing, then because of direct grief.  I was never overly attached to Rocky when my mom was alive, and less so since he lived with Linda.  Sapphire's death was different; she still sort of felt like "my" pet by extension, since I saw her so much, and she always seemed so happy to see me.  Linda and Gary are really taking it hard, especially since they had virtually no time to prepare.

It's weird to think that it was my mom's death that brought Rocky into Linda's life--and they had him for so much longer than my mom did, or even Jane, his first owner.  I realized on the ride home that the last time I ever saw my mom was in Rocky's company.  She came down to school in the beginning of September that year, to lend us her nicer vacuum and to drop off whatever I'd forgotten. I can remember exactly where her van was parked, on the one-way road past our townhouse block.  Rocky was on his little purple leash, and we left him in the house while she took us all grocery shopping.  She had also brought a tray of pumpkin squares with cream cheese frosting, which were delicious, and as we stood around in Townhouse 31 eating them, she mentioned there having been a small accident on the stairs in the house with some cream cheese.  True to form, when I got home the night of her death a few weeks later, there was a big smudge on the carpet!  And there was Rocky, completely unaware that his human wasn't coming back.

Sean and I joked about Rocky showing up in heaven and seeing my parents, and my dad looking at Rocky and saying "so this is the little bastard who got to sleep on my pillow?"  Poor JTD--all he ever wanted was a big, manly dog (well, and a boat).  Then he dies, and his wife gets two frou-frou dogs in succession!  I don't actually believe in heaven, of course, but it's still nice to picture it.

(Former) Home Again

It was a little surreal to wave goodbye to Phyllis this morning from inside 213 E. Sedgwick! She was headed up to Ct to see her father, who entered hospice weeks ago but who has made a Lazarus-like recovery recently. I'm staying here until tomorrow.  I'm driving to Mediato meet Stuart and Maureen for lunch, and then tonight my friends are coming to Mt Airy for dinner at Earth Bread.

It's always such a pleasure to come back here, and to spend time with Phyllis. We had dinner at  Baci last night, a fantastic seafood soup and delicate pesto ravioli. It always feelslike I'm visiting an aunt or some other close family member, rather than just a friend-we did live together for four years, so we know each other's foibles quite well. And I love coming back to this house whose foibles I also know quite well-the creak of the staircase, the particular woody smell when you walk in the front door,  the rumble of the electric kettle as it brews. To date, this is the home I've spent the longest span in after leaving Windsor, so I suppose it does feel like a return home when I'm here. ButI have the pleasure of visiting without regret-I don't wish I still lived here, so I can enjoy the nostalgia without its being tinged with sadness.