some people go to clubs and bars on tuesday nights, that seems so completely strange to me. yeah i could party on a tuesday, wednesday or thursday if there was a special reason, but people regularly getting plastered on school nights seems pretty stupid. sigh. more to think on. but i guess it's good that certain illusions not be allowed to build up because they can be dangerous, can't they. fuck fuck fuck. i hate that i was on some level waiting all day for a phone call that lasted approximately five minutes and did not exactly leave me feeling warm and/or fuzzy. i hate that i let myself do that. i'm turning my phone off tomorrow. LIFE IS NEVER SIMPLE.