why do i constantly go back and read old posts from weeks, months, even years before? i don't really know...in an entry from last july i wrote this: "and the moon was delightfully yellow and very low in the sky, too...a delicious cheese just out of reach." it makes me want to see a full moon, like now.

i watched la femme nikita tonight. i'm so impressionable--movies really can affect me, for brief periods anyway, like how i always have that "gee i want to get married" feeling after i watch a good chick flick, except this kind of made me want to be an assassin. lol. or just shoot something, at least; i haven't fired a gun in years, haven't even held one since the day my mom took my dad's beretta .22 to the safety deposit box to await my 21st birthday. come to think of it, that damn thing hasnt been cleaned in three years. christ, it's probably not even going to work when i get it back.this isn't quite the one i have, my has a right-handed grip for some annoying discriminatory reason. i bet they don't even make lefty guns. how cruel.