Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

No, this isn't a reference to the movie, really. the line just came to mind as i was thinking about the conversation sara and i had about annie and her boundless reserves of optimism and energy, and it made me wonder what exactly comprises a "spotless mind". i don't doubt that if one's mind were made spotless, one would indeed enjoy eternal sunshine and happiness.

what are the spots in my mind? doubt is one. well, not one, many. they're about myself, mostly. fear is another. anger...i still hold grudges against a few people for past slights (example: the stephanie w. issue with heather). i think most of my spots are made up of my own petty faults. i want to get try to get rid of them; i know my mind will never be spotless because there will always be negative aspects of my personality, but there's nothing wrong with a little self-improvement, as sara discussed on her own site.