the day gets better and better. we're not going to even bother complaining about paper grades, because they were Bs and that's ok, in the long run. single grades aren't something to kill myself over. i would still be fuming about them, though, if something that was truly bad hadn't happened when i got home. wendy is not in the IRC. them putting her name on the roster was a mistake for which they apologized profusely when she went to see them today. this is a multi-faceted dilemma. i did not want to do IRC until wendy declared she was. my friends then also became convinced as did almost everyone on both subfree floors of campion. basically, all my friends and everyone i know are moving into the IRC next year. however, i love wendy and i can't imagine not living with her. we settled the day we moved in that we wanted to stay roommates as long as possible. it's still possible for wendy to get in if someone else declines. however, if i sign the commitment form on thursday, i am not allowed to pull out if she does not get in. you are supposed to have a roommate already for IRC; what do i say, that i have one but you're not letting her in?? also, i'm not allowed to throw my lot in both with wendy and with regular housing at the same time. if wendy and i ignore IRC and go for regular housing, we will most likely wind up in Kostka Klaver, which are on the other side of campus. i won't see my friends. we will be living the the annoying drunken fairfield population that, thus far, i have been so lucky as to avoid being exposed to on the whole. i can't imagine that, either. i love all my friends, i love the atmosphere of having people i know around. i don't want to go to some other stupid dorm, but neither do i want to make wendy go alone to some stupid dorm! i don't want to live with anyone else, some girl i don't know! so basically i must choose by thursday. everything in me is telling me to sign the paper and hope to god that wendy gets in. if she doesn't i don't know what i'll do, but i know that i would be really unhappy living away from all my friends. meredith advised me to go with wendy and complain. sara told me to go pray. i think i'll do both. wendy and i are meeting at the gym later to work out and bitch. hopefully we can plan a course of action. the thought keeps recurring--how can i possibly live with anyone but wendy??? most people in IRC settled their roommates weeks and weeks ago. i thought wendy and i had our situation settled before anyone else! fuck the goddamned IRC for fucking everything up. goddamit.