i took a brief walk up to bellarmine hill hoping to tire myself out, hoping to get certain things off my mind for just a little while. didn't work. it was pretty, and would have been prettier if i'd spent more time looking up and less time watching for goose crap and sidewalk cracks.

i cleaned the room today. again, partially a result of wanting to clear my mind. cleaning does that, it switches my train of thought from other people's ridiculous dramas to where this piece of paper goes, and whether i got all the dust off the microwave. it's only a temporary solution, of course. now i'll probably lie in bed for a while and think about things. here's a list of what usually runs through my mind:

1. my friends back home and their various troubles
2. my friends here
3. my mom
4. certain things i obsess over
5. earning more money
6. getting all my work done
7. my current state of happiness
8. my future, or sense of direction/lack thereof
9. stupid people whose presence annoy me
10. things i need to do, letters to send, gifts to buy, things to remember
11. my wishes, both obvious and secret
12. my dad, because we knew he'd be in here somewhere, he's always here.

maybe THIS is why i take so long to go to sleep, eh?